What do you live for? Why do you live? I've asked this question to many Europeans. What is your answer? I live for myself, one guy told me. Others have said: I live to feel happiness. I live for my child. I don't know.... I don't know what I live for!!! Do you know? Why you live? What you live for?
I believe I know why I live. And I have decided what I will live for. This is how I found out:
Nobody told me this is how it is. They just asked. Asked if I wanted to pray. I was in a school. We were 12 living in a house. Monday evening we had house meetings. Discussed routines and stuff. And prayed. We shared one thing that we were thankful for, and one thing that was challenging. Then we went to Jesus with it. I guess I just did it. Didn't think much about it. But the strange thing is that it started changing me.
Jesus. I could come to him with everything. He knows my inner thoughts. And he doesn't leave! He knows my selfishness, my insecurity, my longings. Good and bad sides. And he stays. He says he is the one who created me. As I meet him, I meet the true myself. It's tough, cause I see bad things. But with Jesus I can face it. He makes new starts. But it is also great. I feel free. I don't have to hide. He has seen my darkest sides, and he didn't go away. Then I have nothing to be ashamed of. And I know it. He have told me, and I have experienced it. I trust him.
My testimony is this: I lived that people would see me, confirm me. Tell me that I was good. I used different methods to make it happen. Mister nice guy. Always doing what people would applause. Mister crazy. Shocking people. I lived to be seen. Know I am seen. By the one who sees everything. Who forgives, heals and lets me start over again. I want to live for him. Follow his example. And he says that he lives in me :-) What a promise. May this saying of the apostle Paul be through in my life: "And he died for all, so that they who live might no longer live for themselves, but for Him who died and rose again on their behalf." That's power! Power who can change a life, a family, a city, Europe...
